I felt stupid.
I felt like a failure.
I felt weak.
I felt angry at everything.
I felt like i was letting something down.
I felt like the world was against me.
No, that I was against me.
Then Eric said "Spring will forgive you, baby."
I realized he was right.
I drew the Hermit, alone with his lantern of truth; it is harder to see with just one lantern.
I drew the ten of swords, trying to let everyone else take the blame and reaching out for,
not help but excuses.
I drew strength...not always brute force.
I drew the chariot...victorious and rejoicing.
The card that was missing from strength and ten of swords was the two of wands...
This is the Me I want to keep, not the dejected and disappointed me.
Long live the Kingdom of Me.
My body is my temple and I am it's priestess.